I think I blacked out.
And then posted in all caps?
I don't know what just happened.
Maybe I was having another nightmare. But then why did I post that stuff? Did I fall asleep at my computer? The last thing I remember was looking at my window and seeing something. And then I woke up, in my bed.
I'm going to try to get an emergency visit with my therapist. I don't know what's going on. I don't want to be like my brother.