What?

I think I blacked out.

And then posted in all caps?

I don't know what just happened.

Maybe I was having another nightmare.  But then why did I post that stuff?  Did I fall asleep at my computer?  The last thing I remember was looking at my window and seeing something.  And then I woke up, in my bed.

I'm going to try to get an emergency visit with my therapist.  I don't know what's going on.  I don't want to be like my brother.