So Far So Good

Classes have been pretty good so far.  A lot of work but I'm liking it.

There's a boy in my Astronomy class that I think has been checking me out.  God I hope he is.  He's kinda cute. Asian--I think he might be Japanese?  He's kind of gothy--with a little makeup he could almost pass for one of the guys in Dir En Grey.  I know, I know, I shouldn't be all "OMG Asians are so hot", but there are a lot of Asian boys that happen to be really cute.

I can already hear Justin mocking my yellow fever.

Not, you know, the actual disease.

I've been inoculated against that.

That I need to remind myself of that is kind of sad.

Class and Followers

So I just noticed I have followers.  This is pretty weird considering I don't know you people and, following your links, you mostly post about made up internet monsters.

Also, one of you has started asking me about my dreams for some reason.

They're...the same as always?  I guess some are weird but these are dreams we're talking about.

Anyway, that aside, classes are pretty cool so far.  Though it's not fair that almost every single boy in my classes is a hottie.  I wish my gaydar worked.

I haven't really had any episodes lately.  I complained about having the chills, but Justin said, "It's just fucking cold."  I guess he's right.

I'm Weird

It's strange, but I'm really looking forward to classes starting next week.  I know, I need to be detained and my brain examined, so they can see what strange deviance there is in my mutant brain.

I heard the scratching again last night.  Maybe it's not being my roomie trying to act like a sexy catgirl--she was out last night with some of her friends.  Maybe we have mice, or something.

God, I hope it's not mice.  I am such a wuss when it comes to traps.

Ugh

Sometimes I wonder if I stay in some relationships just because it's hard to find gay men in this town.

Anyway, passive-aggressiveness aside, my roommates must be doing something weird, because I keep hearing scratching in the night.

Lyndsay keeps saying she's not doing it, but I think she's just pretending to be a cat at her internet boyfriend again.

...I'm putting this off, because this one is really bad.

It's not skin cancer.  It's just a freckle that got cut.  It's not skin cancer.  I've had this freckle since I was a teenager.

Something We All Know

Ever been up really late, waiting for someone to call?

That's me right now.

Sometimes I think it sucks to rely on other people, you know?  Some days I just wish I could get away from everyone, never have to talk to them again.

Oh well, at least I have the internet.  I can always rely on you, internet!

Speaking of the internet, got a weird email the other day.  One of my friends sent me a article talking about this girl who we used to be in class with.  Charity was her name.  Apparently, she did some sort of murder-suicide thing recently.  Killed her old boyfriend from high school, then slit her own wrists with the same knife.  There's not much info in the papers about it, though.

I feel bad.  I didn't know her all that well, but she seemed really nice.  Apparently she had a history of mental problems?  I didn't see anything like that, though.  They think she might have killed her parents, too.

Oh well.  If she did have mental problems, I hope she's at least peaceful now.

It might sound callous, but part of me is glad I'm not fucked up...you know, like that.  I got off pretty easy, all things considered.  I'm not trying to belittle her condition...but I guess stuff like this just makes me realize how lucky I really was?

Anyway, enough of that for now.  Back to internet and glaring at my phone.

Why Did I Have To Mention Bird Flu?

I don't have bird flu.  Just a runny nose and a cough.  It's winter.  Those happen.

Really wish I didn't have to keep telling myself that.  Oh well.

If I did have bird flu, you'd be the first to know when I turn into an exploding clipart bird, internet.

Speaking of birds, saw the weirdest thing on the way to Espresso Royale the other day.  Some guy's walking around campus dressed like Ace from Ruby Quest.  I kid you not, staff and beak and spade and everything.  I've seen him a couple times now, too.  He's...pretty huge.

Maybe he's getting ready for Winter War?  It's a pretty obscure costume, but these are nerds we're talking about.

Oh well, now that I've mentioned clipart and coffee, I think I'll go brew some and watch Birdemic again.

Might As Well Get This Over With

So, my therapist suggested I do this, and I kind of made it my New Year's resolution, so here goes.

You on the internet can call me Carraway.  Hey!  As you can probably tell from the title, I'm a hypochondriac.  It's nothing serious, but it's been hurting my class attendance lately.

This blog's primary purpose is, whenever I'm feeling sick/imagining symptoms, I post about it here.  Basically, this is going under the assumption that, if I just make it  public, I'll realize on some level how silly it is for me to, say, imagine a case of mild indigestion is the bird flu.

Hopefully, I won't post on here very much.  I've been getting better.

Who knows, I might post other stuff, about my life here, too!